(Well, between my last regular posts and now, a lot of things have happened. Including a whole new, wonderful person who was added to our family. But I digress).
Specifically, recently, a few things have happened:
1) I've been doing projects. Things ground to a halt when I found out I was pregnant 18 months ago. Since Peter's birth in September, I've had fits and starts of normalcy, but for the most part we've been thrown continually back into survival mode, especially by ear infections. It doesn't take much to upset our (my?) equilibrium and routine for 3 kids four and under, but the unrelentless cycles of sickness really made it tough to find our normal. 15 doses of antibiotics and one ear surgery later, things are finally looking up. Poor Julia is not in pain. We're all sleeping, And I've got dirt and paint under my fingernails.
2) I read through my blog archives. A few nights ago, I randomly decided to read some old posts, and ended up spending more than an hour laughing and crying myself through the memories. I had forgotten how much I had captured, and was amazed by how little of it I would have remembered if it wasn't saved electronically.
My day-in-the-life post from November 2014 hit me hard:
"A few minutes later, I found myself basking in just how precious Anna was - I had called her a silly goose, and she said "nooo! I'm Anna Rose, Mommy!" and she leaned her head on the door frame and looked at me with her big beautiful eyes and started singing "Rock-a-bye, Anna Rose." And in that moment, I felt a great loss for how many of these beautiful moments that I cannot adequately capture or remember. Over the course of the day, she makes me laugh and smile over and over again with her hilarious and sweet comments, and by the time Justin gets home I'm lucky if I can think of even one of them to tell him, and even then, the retelling is never as sweet as her little voice or her little head tilt. I wish I had a constant video camera stream to replay all of those moments - for my own sake and for sharing, too."
3) I was honored to give advice to a mom-to-be. A few weeks ago, I received an email asking me to share an inspirational message at a baby shower for a friend. I was shocked and surprised at the invitation. Even though the friend herself had asked privately for advice on pregnancy and motherhood, I couldn't believe when her mother asked me to speak at the shower and share my thoughts more publicly. I still feel unworthy of the task, especially since I gave my talk to a room full of mothers with decades more experience than I. Nonetheless, it got me to thinking....
And in reading this post, can you guess where all those things led? Back here to Finding Former Glory.
My life is more hectic these days, and there are exponentially more sweet moments for me to forget. More sadly, some days I think I'm too busy to notice, let alone remember. I don't want these years to slip away. And not just the adorable toddler comments, but my thoughts on motherhood. My challenges and joys.
Sure, I could start a journal, but I've always been better with external motivations. Maybe, just maybe, there are some friends out there for whom my ramblings are helpful.
And there will at least be projects (and adorable children) for photo fodder.
:) loved your rambling thoughts Em! You DO have a lot to share!
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